I miss my grandma

Dear grandma, how are you? You been leaving us for two months, how's is the another world? Did you make any new friends? Grandma, i really miss you a lot. I can't even see you for the last time. When mummy called me and told me that you already passes away, do you know how heartbroken I am? I was having the final exam during that time, and when i received this news, i can't control my feelings and cried so badly. I didn't blame God, I only blamed myself. Why I wasn't there when you breath your last? I wish time could turn back so that I can be there with you. I still remembered the last moment when I spend time with you. That night, you couldn't sleep, i accompany you to watch tv show, i still remembered that time is already late night, you was lying down on my shoulder. I have no idea that that will be the last time i ever saw you and spend time with you. Grandma, i understand that in life, there will be death and born. But if I can choose, i will choose that all my family members will be live forever in this world. Grandma, if there will be a next life; i would like to become your granddaughter again :) You are the great grandmother in this world :) I love you alot. :')

A friend name Dun Mai

Hi Dun Mai. First of all, I wanna wish you Happy Birthday. How you doing in Heaven? Did you meet our Heaven Daddy? How does he look like? We miss you so much bro. Hard to believe that you already left us for one year. We still remember how we met you for the first time. You are a friendly, silly and kind hearted boy. When you are around, there will be a lot of laughter. But now everything will be just a memory. If you didn't meet an accident, you won't leave us. I know, our life are decided by God. When the time come, we have to leave. I didn't blame God. I am thanks to God that He let me know you in my life. I believe that one day I will meet you up there when there is the time for me to go. Take care bro. We will be down here keep worshiping God. Hope one day, we will meet :') Don't worry about your family. They will be fine :) Happy Birthday again.

不知不觉，在吉隆坡读书已有四年了。在四年里，在学业上遇到了不少的打击。但是 很庆幸的是我从来没放弃，到现在学业进步了许多。不知怎么的，我很想念我的家 人。可能是和他们的感情很坚固吧。一个人在外读书和生活真的不容易。凡事都要 \亲力而为。有时候我多么想，当我从大学回到宿舍后；热腾腾的饭菜已经在等我了。 多么希望家人能跟我一起住在吉隆坡。爸爸妈妈，您们放心；我一定会以好的成绩 风光毕业，找份好工作，来报答您们。让我来照顾您们吧。爱您们哦 <3 <3

It's been long time I didn't come here and update my blog. Quite busy recently haha. Having final semester exam. Thanks to GOD that all the exam going well and I have confident that I will get good result for this semester. My dad gonna be happy of my exam result. All the glory thanks to GOD, without HIM, I won't be successful. GOD, it's been two years we have together, this year 2nd April is our second year anniversary. I will never forget that, i am going to celebrate it :) I still remember how I met YOU two years back. I just wanna say thank you. Thanks for YOUR love, YOUR blessing and everything YOU have done for me. YOU have changed my life. Especially in my studies, last time i always get D in everything. But now, i even like to study and got many A in assignments and exams. I became more positive in thinking. Few weeks back I met one of my friend- Giovani at my college. She said to me " kelly, you look more cheerful than last time. What;s the reason behind it?" That time i didn't answer her, i just smile. I know what's the reason, it's God. My life belongs to you Jesus. I know you will lead me through everything no matter i am in good or bad situation. I will keep praise and worship you. Thank you Lord Father, I love you very much. :) <3

Past Memories

Don't know why suddenly past memories keep coming into my mind this few days. I always tell myself that I have forgotten it and already throw it very far away.  Unfortunately it still hiding deep in my heart.
Haha, it's so funny. After one year healing time, that memories that so important to me still in my mind, my heart.

I think i won't forget it, cause it contains happy,anger and sadness. I still miss u dear, i admit it, I still miss u alot. Do u know that, i dream about you recently. I remember that dream, we are so sweet together inside the dream.

Even though I miss u lot, but there is one for sure is I will not get back with u again. Sorry for that, I prefer to keep the memories inside my heart rather than get back together with u again.  I don't trust u and don't trust love. I wanna protect my heart.

As I told myself, i just wanna concentrate my studies and take care of my family :) But no matter where I go, I will still miss u. I will still remember what is your favorite food, drinks, color and what you dislikes. I also still remember your habbits, everything abt u. Don't worry my dear, I will keep praying for u and ur family. I love u dear, wish u be happy forever, u will always be at my praying list. :) Take care of urself, and I also will stay happy forever :)

June 22 2012

An regular Friday, I went to church to meet my bro and sis after long time. I didn't aspect that they will welcome me with two boxes of sushi, my favorite food :D I feel so touched :) Tmmrw I going to Midvalley hang out with my friends, I told myself that, this time I have made a decision to enter Koir team at my church. I know that this is a good choice for me, because I like to sing. I know that my voice is not that good, but I can learn. This is my interest, so I an not gonna to give up again. This time I want to be brave and be confident to chase my dream. I know I can do it! :))

I went to church on Saturday 5th of May. They having normal service which we usually attend. Our Pastor Jonathan was not there cuz he is injured. He fell down from the staircase in his home, so Saturday service was lead by Pastor Daniel Choong. He talked to us many things that time. We having M4J(Maylaysia for Jesus) on June 6 to June 9 2012.This M4J is very important to us cause it a healing time for everyone of us. This M4J will go on four days from morning till night. Morning and afternoon will be held in our church, night will be held at Bukit Jalil Stadium outdoor carpark. This M4J not only our church attending, many church from Indonesia, Taiwan and Singapore are attending for this event. Taiwan Praise and wordship team - Joshua band, Vannesa Wu, SiEn and Jovi Theng are coming to this event too. I know that, I must get ready for this M4J. Even though I know I will be very tired that time since it from morning till night and go on four days, but i know that this M4J will be special to me. Cause it's my time to go and pray to God. Just can't wait for M4J. It's already one year plus since I became a christian. My relationship with Jesus already one year plus, just can't believe that. I know that Jesus will always stay by my side, I also wanna be the same. I won't stop praying to Jesus and I won't stop get closer to HIM. Because of HIS blessing, I am satisfied and happy with my life, thank you Jesus. I saw one quote yesterday in facebook. This quotes said that "My daughter, no man can ever claim you unless he claims you from ME. I reserved a man for you who has MY heart and love ME even more than he will love you. Soon you will know him. I have the perfect time. You're my princess, my daughter. Let no prince claim you unless he ask you from MY hand for I am your Father, the King of kings. You, my princess, are worth loving and deserves a prince." When I saw this quotes, I smiled. I know that one day I will meet my love in church. Jesus will bless me one love relationship that HE want me to have. Soon, I will meet it :) <3 Jesus, our relationship will last forever. Thanks for everything Jesus. I am so happy in Your Kingdom <3 <3 <3