Memories

All the memories are still here Kelly, did you realize it?? You realized,just you forcing yourself not to remember it or think about it. But, is it forcing yourself are a good thing for you right now?? You should forget it willingly. But in your heart, you doesn't want to forget all this memories.

The house, college, hostel, car, restaurant, Bukit Larut, SBN, TPG, all this places have the memories. Whenever i come to this places, i will remember evevything. Hahah, it's funny for me. The last time we spent time together, is his b'day that time. I have no regrets, at least GOD give me the chance to be with him on his bday, it's enough for me.Even though that time I taught I don't have the chance to be with him on that day, but GOD give me the chance that day to be with him. Do u know that, I am so happy that time seriuosly. :)

I don't hate you, no matter what you did, it already past. I have no energy to hate u anymore. Let everything go, I believe time can heal my heart. Ya, i feel hurt, but i am happy because my family and my friends are with me. As long i have my family and my friends all it's enough for me,I don't need anything else anymore.

I already promise myself and my friends, I will be happy and smile always. Right now I am doing it, I already move on my life. One day i will forget all this, it will be long time, but i know i will.. I wish myself good luck.

Everything happens for good :)

Melaka Trip

Tdy is labour day, all of us went to melaka, one day trip. Before that, we girls overnight in Foong Peng's house, we all supposed to sleep early cuz the next day we going early to melaka..but we girls all are talking abt love relationship things until 2.30 am only go and tidur..hahhaha...next morning hard for us to wake up...

Around 10am we started our journey to melaka..when we reached there, it ady 12.00 pm..we had our delicious lunch at Jungle streer chicken ball rice shop..the shop full of customers..we need to wait for some time to get our seat..:D

After tat we went to shopping mall for window shopping and visited the street..they sell all kinds of food, make me always feel hungry :P hahahahaha

around 6.30pm, we started our journey back to KL..we had our dinner at Kuchai Lama pork noodle shop...after tat we sit and talked for a while and we all went back home..

Tdy we all really feel tired but we all are happy. I realized that now my life and myself are changed..My life become much more better and happier..for myself, i think my character changed..I think i am not the last time Kelly maybe, i m not sure yet, but i can feel myself changed :)

actually, for the girls talked that night, i also got think alot. I have to forced myself to let go everything and forget everything. I don't want this memory keep sticking on my mind, I want this memory to get lost..hopefully one day i can tell myself that I dont remember that i got into a relationship with him before ;)

it's getting late now, I wanna sleep ady..good night :D

9 days without you...

It's already 9 days without you be with me..I seriously don't know how I feel now,sometimes i feel happy but when I am alone, I will be thinking about you. That's when I will start feel hurt.

The 1st day, I cried. 2nd day, I felt very sad..Days keep on passing and passing, I know it's hard for me to forget everything. And sorry, until now I still can't throw the ring and the key chains away. Cuz until now, I don't want you to go far away from me, but u ady went away..

I wish time can turn back and will stop at 3th July 2010. That's the date we be together, but everything change.

I have to accept all this. What all my friends said are true, I must move on my life, and be happy like usual. Right now I am trying to do it, I will try my best. ;)

Tamil New Year and Vasakhi celebration :D

Yesterday, i went to college attended the Tamil New Year and Vasakhi celebration. When I reached there, it's already started. Haha..the dances and songs are nice. I was with Cristin, Brian, Kavee, Sugla, Hammad, Saran, Dravena,Sunmark. At the same time, i saw Prem, Jeswin, Shiva, Siavash and some other friends. We all took some pictures together..It was a nice celebration.

The ceebration end around 12am. After tat we all went to BBJ Mamak Restoran. Dravena was so sleepy tat time, haha, her face looked so funny when she feel sleepy, hehe. We ate and talked many things, until 3am only we went back to home.

Even though feel tired, but we all had a great time together :))

It's gone!!!!!

Everything gone, all also gone. I told myself must be strong and get over it, but now only I realize that I am not strong enough. I still feel sad and hurt, what should I do now, what should I do now?????

Even though I already expected all this thing will happen, but still hard to accept it.I seriously need time to forget all this. I want to throw all this frm my mind and heart and memory..

God, please lead me...in my heart, i will always remember the three people who care and love me alot when I am in their house. Sorry for can't continue contact with three of you, but I clearly know three of u do love me alot, treat me like own family member.Thanks a lot, no matter where am I, i will always remember Uncle, Aunty & Parween. May god bless three of u...

Church Party :))

I didn't been to church before in my life..But tdy i went..cuz i was invited by one of my best fren - Leonard Saw's, he told me that his church team will have a rock party gathering and a seminar talk, so i went for it.

The gathering was so nice and awesome. All of us danced like crazy inside one dancing room and after that we played some game, Then all of us sit down and listen to a talk..after that we had our light dinner and we moved to the opposite building and listen to a seminar talk..The priest was talking about relationship things and i really learned a lot of things abt relationship frm the seminar talk...Now i knw what step should i do now..;)

I feel so relax and enjoy when i was in this party, i make some new frens and at the same time i do learned a lot of things...I am hoping for the next party to come ;))

Better Be Prepare For Everything That Will Happen Soon!!!!

My mind was disturbed for this few days, I seriously don't know what am I thinking right now. Maybe I just didn't expect all this things will happen. From the beginning I taught everything will be fine if I stay strong and positive, but now, I don't even know what is strong and positive means. In my heart have a lot of things want to tell to some f my close fren, but when i am with them,I can't say it out cuz i duwan them to worry abt me.

God,please lead me to a peace mind so that i can feel relax. Right now I know I have to prepare for everything bad that will happen. I dunno whether I still have to fight for it or not or should I just let go everything.

Maybe I step into the wrong way from the begging or maybe I am not. I am listening one chinese song right now, it's one of the theme song from Shaolin 2011 movie. The english translation of this lyrics is this :


"An unconditional heart brings great blessing with no boundary
Without boundaries, our fragile life are all connected through love
Why do you turn a blind eye and let yourself be restricted by the status quo
Willingly, I finally come to my senses to realize my character and my emptiness
Let go of your inverted dreams, let go of the things which one day will fade away
Let go of your leisure, desire, pleasure and let go of suspense
With one more thing in hand, more danger will come
With less thing, greed will lessen as well
If this is fate, no matter how bitter life can be, you are always connected
Yet if it isn't, just bury this love in your heart
In this life of ours,everything interconnected & it takes only a spit second to look back
Let me plant a seed of god will and walk down this road of life together with you
Only someone whose heart is not bounded can accomplish great things
Only someone whose heart does not have a story is indigenous above all
I've consider heaven and earth & I've consider everything from my past
Yet I still cannot make out the days of live and death
Do not hate your eyes which deceive you
Do not resent for happiness is not far away
As thought are build around your desire,it only takes a split second to decide between good & evil
With a heart of repentance,let me walk down this road of life together with you
No matter how firms your lies may be, they can't escape from the eyes of God
Before dawn, your heart is being dragged further away
As the clouds are able to blind our eyes in an instant, so do human hearts change
Bitterness have been accumulated since long before and is bound to keep coming
Yet human being turn a blind eye and let themselves be restricted by the status quo
Willingly, I finally come to my senses to realize my character & my emptiness
In pure simplicity, let me walk down this road of life together with you"


This is a nice song actually and the movie are nice too :))