My Birthday xD

Today is my birthday, I am so happy..hahahahha..Can give myself cuti satu hari =D I received many wishes from my frens..Jassy and Vani wish me rirgh on 12am..feel so touch to have good sisters like them, always be with me all the time =D

Very thanks to god that give me a wonderful life at the end and happy ending. Now only i know that why my fren always say God will give what is the best for you.. Finally i received what is the best for me from God..Thanks alot, I love my life always =D

Death and Alive, new life begin, new Kelly are born =D

Yesterday, 24th September was my baptize day at FGA CYC Church..Wow, i feel so exicted that time, cause i really dunno what is my feeling when i going to baptism.. So many people are baptism that time..I was in group 8..when came to our group, we walked down to the holy water...after the leaders pray for us, they put us down into the water and pull us out again...the moment i went into the water, i told myself..the last time old kelly already death..all the sad memories and hard that she had will buried together with her and will never come back again..

When the moment i came out from the water, I will be the new born kelly with new and happy memories...I am so happy that God finally let me find my own destination and i believe that God will always guide me in the rest of my life.

Thanks to everyone at church, thanks to my all my best frens that came and celebrate my baptism day. You guys really support me alot =) love u all very muchie =D

I will remember this date 24th September..My new life begin in this date =D wohooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo =D

The dream that I had yesterday night

Yesterday night after the CG, all if us went to watched The Smurf movie. The movie was damn funny and we laughed so much =D. When I reached home, it's already 2am. I straight went to sleep cause i was too tired.

I also dunno when i slept off. Then i had a dream. In the dream, I came to a new housing area. This housing area all also bungalow house. And i was wondering why i come to this place.

The next moment, i saw all my frens at there. College frens and some of my high school frens. They told me one thing that Gurmit house having wedding celebration going on. My heart stopped for a while. and i dunno y.

So i quickly went to his house there and i saw what my frens said are true. his dad, mum, sister are celebrate for him. The wedding is for him and ankitha. I remembered, in the dream, i was standing quite infront of them that time with the crowd of people.

And i was looking at the celebration.I remember i feel so sad when i saw this wedding going on in front of my eyes. It's so hard for me to accept. I almost cried that time..

Gurmit saw me standing there and he looked at me. His eyes was telling me sorry. I remember I walked off from the celebration.

When now i woke up, i am thinking why the hell i had this dream? Is it God wanted to tell me that actually I haven't let go of this feeling, that's y God want me to realize through this dream? Or maybe it's just an illusion??

Yesterday evening, i company Kumsy went to apiit submit her assignment and we went and eat at cafeteria. I saw Ahmad at there, and we was talking. He saw my hand no more wearing the kalaa. He asked me did i took it off and i said yes. He said" so now u are okay and already let go of this feeling without any sadness in ur heart?"

That time i dunno what to answer him. He said this is normal and he said i need time. He also said as i already took off the kalaa, i should forget all the memories with gurmit. The kalaa contains all this memories, when i took off this kalaa, at the same time i also must took off all the memories.

He told me, one day i will be okay.=)) i said thanks to ahmad.
it;s already five months i broke up.Sometimes i feel that i ady forget abt him and sometimes i will feel that i still love him.

Hahaha, very confusing right? I think God want me to know that the wedding between him and ankitha will come one day. and want me to faster recover from this break up.

I will do my best =))

One Encunter God Camp @ Peace Heaven, Genting Highlands

On 1st September to 3rd September, all CYC members went for 3 days 2 nights One Encounter God Camp at Peace Heaven, Genting Highlands. Before that, I went to Foong Ping house overnight. Morning morning me and Grace went jogging and after that all of us went for lunch..night we went to cheras pasar malam =D

The next morning we all move to Genting Highlands. When reached there, all of sit according to our home cell group. After that we played some games and some home cell group went to the stage and shout out their slogan =P

The next day is the most exciting day. We have amazing race.wohooooo. Some of us can't manage to run up to First World Hotel but we managed to walk up there. When we reached there, we managed to finish all task of the games.hahaha..Although we didn't get any prize, but we very enjoyed the whole process.

At night we praise and worship God. and keep encho..hahahaha

During this camp, I have learned so many things that I can't learned from the books. In this camp, Me, wei Yi and Pei fen are together with CYC20J not in oiur own cell group. All of them are younger than us. Maybe outsiders will say why we have to follow the instruction of the people who younger than us. But to me is not, although they younger than us, but I have learned so many things from them. Their leadership and friendly are very good. All of us can get along very well and we even sometimes play with each other during the camp. and we als gather at night and listen to ghost stories.

The girls and guys are so caring when we are in amazing race. The guys keep watching and counting the numbers of us to make sure we won't lost at amazing race. The girls keep motivating each other. =))

Even though during this camp, Me and Wei Yi got quarrel with Pei Fen, but we told our-self that this quarrel will make our relationship more closer and better than last time. and at last, God showed us that three of us are much more closer than last time. and this time we also successfully support CYC20J cell group. I really feel so happy and reall thanks to our CYC41T leader put us inside CYC20J group. We
really learned so many things..

I also finally successfully let go everything in my past. Especially the love relationship between me and Gurmit. I just feel very happy and relax.. =D

Bible Class Exam :))

Sunday I attended the bible class exam, the whole progression was so funny. Some of the questions we don't even remember the answer, and all of us started to copy frm each other infront of Lik Fong.

He also didn't say anything and he gave us tips also, hahaha. All of us laughed and copy the answer from others, and this is not look like a exam also =P but the whole process was so enjoy and nice =))

This Thursday we will be going to genting for the One Encounter God Camp. I feel so excited fir this camp, and looking forward for this camp. Even though we will be in different cell group this time, but i still feel happy =))

This two months holiday I didn't waste it and i will spend well. After genting trip is mooncake celebration. After that, i will be going to thailand with my mun and penang with my frens...=))

My housemate asked me next month my bday got any wish, i said as long every of my family and frens are happy with their life, then this is the best present for my next month bday liao :D hahahaha

Wonderful life and true happiness finally come..hohoho :D

Freedom Feeling

Tdy i went to FGA CYC gathering. I feel so happy and I don't know why. Yesterday Me and Pei Fen went to a new cg, the people there are friendly and nice, but i still miss CYC41T. But it's good to mix around with other people and communicate with others.

Nowadays I just feel like I am very happy and better then last time. Thanks to our lord father that lead me to a bright and happy way. =)) Because of YOU, LORD FATHER, i learned how to face problem in my life, I learned how to be strong and how to forgive.

Without YOU, I won;t be able to move on my life so easily. My life changed because of YOU. Love u Lord Father =))

True Happiness Come

Hello, it's been a long time I didn't update my news at here, cause i was busy for the final exam and other stuff.

I wanna tell that, My life have been changed seriously. It become more better now and i feel much more happier. I remembered before i break up with Gurmit, we have some problem, that he ignore me for more than one month and didn't even pick up my call and reply my message. I seriously feel very heart broken and very hurt because i love him with my own true heart and true feelings but end up he treat me in another way.

I told one of my fren Leonard about this problem, he don't know how to help me actually.He just told me that saturday his church have one party and one talk about relationship and ask me whether wanna come and join them. I said ok and i went there.

About the relationship talk from the priest, it really give me alot of advices and i realize everything. actually i also feel happy after attend the party. :)

from that day onwards, i started follow Leonard come to the church-FGA CYC. I make alots of new frens at there, and alomost every fri,sat and sunday we will meet each other. and sometimes our group CYC 41T go for dinner and movie together. I feel so much better after i went to church. I tld my dad and my mum abt this, they also didn't stop me from going to church. They said that if i really find happiness at there, they will support me.

Even my housemate-Jasreen, she is my best sister. She also told me that i changed alot after i went to church. And slowly i also realised this. If that time, Leonard didn't bring me to the church, I also won't be able to move on my life so easily. Thanks Leonard, u saved me actually :) Glad to have a good brother like u. :)

I remembered last month, i went to makan with my group CYC41T leader. His name is Kwong Jun, and assistant leader also came along that time. Her name is Foong Peng. We went to one mamak at sri petaling.

I told them abt my relationship thing. They listened to me. And Kwong Jun suddenly asked me this question "kelly, do u knw what is LOVE?"

That time i dunno hw to answer him, nd he explained to me like this. He told me that He understand my problem and my feelings. He told me that LOVE is not like i treat u with my own true heart and u also must treat me with ur own true heart and not cheating me. He said that LOVE is no matter how bad the person treat u, hurt u, u will still love her and him without any scar in ur heart. U will forgive and forget what he or she done to u, and u will treat him nicely without any anger.

After Kwong Jun explain this to me, he told me that he knw in my heart, I hate gurmit for hurting and cheating me and think of revenge him back. What kwong jun think are correct. I saeriuosly duwan let gurmit go easily that time, because I knw that it's very easy for me to make him and ankitha break up by using the same way he did to me.

Kwong Jun and Foong Peng told me that, try to forgive him and be thankful for what gurmit done to me, because of him, i can only learn how to be strong to face problem in life. If i forgive and forget, I can only find the true happiness in my heart.

They asked me, whether i ady move on or not. That time i answered them i ady move on. They said that if i really ady move on, why i still think abt him, why still can be angry and sad abt this.

I started to think nicely and i realized that, that time in my heart only have hate, hate gurmit and ankitha until the max, hate them for hurting me, that's y i can't be happy even i move on my life.

after that dinner, i told myself everyday, forgive and forget. and i keep trying and trying, slowly my hate for them go down each day :) and i really feel happy now. I know that, one day i will forgive them completely.

I really thanks our fga cyc 41T group..we are like brothers and sisters like that, always share things and hang out together. Thanks to GOD that put all of us together :) love u guys, we are long ever lasting family :))

Picture of us CYC41T..Standing from left is Nelson, Chun Yen, Me, Pei Fen and Grace. Sitting from left is Leonard, Foong Peng and Kwong Jun =))