One Encounter God Camp @ Peace Heaven Genting Highlands (2nd March 2012- 4th March 2012)

2nd April 2011, 4th September 2011, 24th September 2011 and 3rd March 2012 is the most memorable day for me.

I went for One Encounter Camp at Peace Heaven Genting Highlands at 2nd March. It is a three days two nights camp. This camp is for all of us relax and encounter our Jesus papa.

First night we didn't do anything much, just check in and rest. The second day morning we had breakfast and started to pray, After that we played station games. The games all are very challenging and enjoyable =)

At night is the most enjoyment time. We have second prayer session. This time, I really heard what Dear Lord told me, he deeply touched into my heart. That feeling is so so good. All of us was crying so badly. We all hope that GOD can heal our heart for the past memories and past scar that hard for us to forgive and forget.

I was also crying, my mind just keep flashing back the past relationship memories that I had with Gurmit. The more I flashed back, the more I cried. All my tears came out. All the time i taught I already let go, but when I was at the camp, I realised that I haven't forget even though i ady forgive him.

This memories and scar still with me, and I was scared to face another relationship that will come to me. Cause I will wonder what will happened if I fall in love again? Will I be hurt like past relationship? Will I strong enough to face all the problems? All this question always in my mind and heart all the time.

When the Pastor Jonathan said " those who have the scars in their heart and hard to forgive and release, please come in front, We will pray for you with the name of Jesus, Jesus will heal you" , I know this is the right time for me to seek for GOD for healing.

I am just a human, I don't have power to erase all the pain. But with GOD, HE can heal me, I deeply believe in Jesus. I went in front of the stage and bow down with those sis and bro who came in front also. Everyone of us have our own pain memories, and we all cried.

All the seniors pray for everyone. My leader - Rachel Ong Zu Yin, she came and hug me. I just remembered when she hug me, I kept crying so loud and my tears already make her clothes wet, but we still hugging each other. She asked me to stay until the senior come and pray for me. I keep staying there, crying crying and crying because that time I alreday started to dig out all the pain memories, keep flashing back the past love relationship.

Until Mr Jackson came and pray for me. He asked about my problem and I told him. He put his hand on my head and pray for me.

He wanted me to say this " Lord, Kelly come in front of you to seek forgiveness from you. Please bare my mistake from the past, please heal my heart, please help me release the pain in my mind and heart. Lord, with the name of YOU, I will forgive the people who hurt me, I will let go the past love relationship and I will keep pray for Gurmit and may GOD always bless him"

When I heard this, I refused to say this. I was trying to fight against with my mind and heart. My heart said forget and let go, but I refused to let go. It is like a war in myself. Mr Jackson hold me tightly and asked me to say the word above. He told me, JESUS will listen to your word and HE will guide you to release the pain. He told me I have to say it if i really want to have a new life.

After Mr Jackson talked to me, I no more against. I speak out loudly the words. After the moment I say finished, I shouted loudly. I shouted loudly because I was release the pain out from my mind and heart.

Everyone also shouted loudly.

After that I stand up and go back to my place, that time I saw Grace, she also crying. She saw me and came to hug me. That time I feel so relief after shouting and crying in front of the stage.

It;s not easy for me to let go everything as I really love him and hard to forgive him. When I tried to release in front of the stage, I feel so painful, it's like someone using knife to stab me. It's so hard for me to dig out the pain that hide deeply in my heart.

I already firgive him long time ago, now I have to learn how to forget.

When Mr Jackson bless me with this words " May Jesus hear kelly prayer, and may Jesus guide her for healing and forgiveness. May Jesus bless her for the next love relationship that will come to her, AMEN!" I cried again, because all this while I really got pray, pray that one day Jesus will bless me a right guy that Jesus want me to be with.

That night, I can feel that Jesus tell me that " Dear, I will guide you and you will forget the past. I will bless you for the next relationship but first thing I want to let go the past and forgive the past.

I really heard this word, this word is what JESUS want me to hear. HE want me to release all the pain and memories. I am the new Kelly with no past.

And i was shocked that I can say the words that bless Gurmit. All thanks to JESUS for guiding me.

That night is 3rd March 2012, is the day where i release the pain.

2nd April 2011 - is the day where I accept Jesus as my Savior in my life.(start in a relationship with JESUS)

4th September 2011 - is the day where i register my name for baptism. (Engage with Jesus).

24th September 2011 - My Baptism Day ( Married to Jesus, my wedding day )

3rd March 2012 - The day Jesus help me to release my painess and guide me for forgiveness.


JESUS, thank you for your love and care all the time. I belongs to YOU forever. May YOU bless me always =)

Still got one month will be our 1st year anniversary, I will celebrate together with YOU. Really happy to have YOU in my life, JESUS. =) <3 <3

One day @ Early Step Care Centre

I went to Grace house overnight on Thursday, because Friday morning I will go to her workplace there to help her teach some down syndrome kids.

When I reached there together with her, all her colleague welcome me with their friendly character. Mostly of them are girls, some of them are guys. They came and talked to me and guide me how to teach the kids.

Some of the kids there are hyperactive case, some of theme are brain damage, low self esteem, down syndrome. Their parents send them to this Early Step Care Center to let the professional teacher teach them learn how to be independent and so on.

Some of the kids are very smart. Especially two small girls, Mun Shi Qing and Ng Shi Wei. Their english skills very good and have good social skills.

The kids all was so cute. some of them are naughty, like to run here and there.

After teaching them, I felt something in my heart.

I have seen Grace are a very strong girl. She is just a normal girl, but in her heart full of love towards everyone. She is just 20, and haven't complete her PMR exam. And she came out work and support her family in young age around 15.

Her life maybe hard, but I had never see her complain about her life once. She is so happy and always smile. I had learned so many things through her life.

I just know her last year around June at church, We are in the same group. And within two months, both of us become very good friends, Sometimes we call each other girlfriend and boyfriend hehe. Cause we really understand each other very well.

when i first come to church, I am not so socialize with everyone, I was bit quiet and only talk to people that I know. But when Grace come to church around June last year, her character influence me. She is very friendly and interact with everyone.

Until now I become so friendly and talk to everyone is all because of her.

One thing I learned from her is no matter how hard our life will be, we have to be strong to go with it, cuz it is a challenge for us =))

I really happy when I went and teach the down syndrome kids. Even though their learning skills are very slow, but they are the special kids that GOD send them to this world. They also need care and love. They are so adorable <3 <3

Mcd =D

Tdy i meet my bro - Selvan at carefour. It's been long time didn't see him around, more than one year. We got so many things to catch up just now at carefour. He treated me mcd, haha, I am so happy. Hopefully can meet him next time, and will spend time again :)

Tmmrw i will having class. Really feel lazy to go, lolz. But I have to go, can't miss the classes. If not I can't catch up the lesson later =)

Now i busy with classes, church and social life. And long time I didn;t talk to my family and didn't spend time with them. Missing them so much. Waiting for sem break to come, I can go back for holiday haha.

Time passed so fast. Everything that happened last year already became a past. I don't have any hard feeling for these things anymore. So happy to see myself walking in the happiness path.

I will keep going. And will keep happy always. I believe that when the right time comes, the right person will appear in my life. =))

Broga Hill Trip

I went to broga hill hiking with my church sis and bro yesterday early morning. We meet at church around 4 am and reached broga hill around 5.30am. We started our hiking with bunch of other people.

The whole surrounding was so dark cuz it's still early haha. The funny part was all of us forgot to bring torchlight and end up we used our flash light on the hand-phone. The mountain road was slippery and hard to climb up. But we never give up, we still keep hiking up. Thanks to the guys for helping and pulling we girls up to the mountain and finally we reached the 1st station.

I was so tired when reached the first station. After rest for 10 minutes, the rest wanna go for 2nd statoin but me, grace, one girl, kkk, iain and nelson didn't follow them cuz we are to tired..lolz...

This day was so great. I am so happy when spending time with all of them. Before that, I never taught that this people will come into my life and make so much impact to me. This people are the spiritual motivation for me. All of us are big family. Really thanks to Jesus papa for blessing me all the time, Without YOU in my life, I wouldn't have so much happiness. :)

Love you Jesus papa. You are my great father in the heaven. Everything in my life changed when I have faith in YOU. YOU always watching me and bless me with YOUR love.

YOU came into my life and showed me that there will always have a light in every darkness <3

The importants people in my life =))

It's 2012 now, time pass really fast. 2011 come to the end and now is the beginning of 2012. This is the new beginning of everyone, everyone have their own dream to achieve this year, including me.

In 2011 gone through so many things had made me grow up now, I had learned so many things in the past. Even now the things in the past doesn't mean anything to me now, but the lessons will always in my mind. :)

I always taught that, the love failure that I got in 2011 is mean that I lost the person who I loved and cared in my heart. That time I taught that, the most important people in my life had leave me. But when the moment he left me and go, GOD put other people that important to me into my life at the same time. Like my family, my friends, my future bf.

Now I realized this actually happened in 2011 and this important peoples are still with me in 2012. I hope all of them will always be with me until forever. I lost the one who I loved, but GOD let me gain so many people in my life at the same time and lead me to a happy life that I live now, It's so amazing right? :)

My Family

I am so happy that I have a good family in my life. This is the greatest gift that GOD give to me. Everyday mum got cook nice supper for me, until my dad and my sister got jealous of me :P They told me that when i am at KL, mum will not cook delicious supper for them only simple supper. But if i am at home, she will cook delicious supper for me. xD Dad some more told me come back to hometown often so that they will also can have nice supper because of me. LOL.. my dad and my sis very greedy in eating =D

But i feel very happy to have a funny family like this. No tension, no quarrel. =)) We understand each other very well. :) Our this family relationship will last forever =))
Thank you Grandmother, Daddy and Mummy for your loving and caring all the time. I am so lucky to have all of you

Love you all very much. muacksssssssssss <3 <3

Life Lessons =))

I am back to hometown. I am so happy to see my parents here and i can spend time with my grandmum and my sis. really miss them alot. This few days i stay at home and think abt many things.

All the things that I gone through is just like a dream. A dream that contain many lesson to me and a dream that changed my life totally. I think this is the blessing from the distinguish for me. A good life lesson for me to realize that how happy am I in this world. =))

People come into your life for reasons and they leave you also for reasons. And I know about all the reasons. Thank you Lord Father, thanks to you that give me such a wonderful life that full of happiness, sadness,hateful, angry. Because i gone through this,I can clearly know that which way I am going now. I am towards happiness road now. Because I know that Lord Father you are be with me when I faced so many problems at the past. I know YOU always guide me to the right path, YOU showed me that there's always have a light in every darkness.

YOU have put wonderful people in my life to help and take care of me always.Like
My Family,Jasreen, Saran, Deeban, Leonard, Grace, Foong Peng, Eugene, Chun Yan,Pei Fen, Nelson and many more. =))

And now happiness is already in my hand. I promise that I will never let this happiness go away again =)) I will grab it and this happiness will always be with me until the end =))