It's already 9 days without you be with me..I seriously don't know how I feel now,sometimes i feel happy but when I am alone, I will be thinking about you. That's when I will start feel hurt.
The 1st day, I cried. 2nd day, I felt very sad..Days keep on passing and passing, I know it's hard for me to forget everything. And sorry, until now I still can't throw the ring and the key chains away. Cuz until now, I don't want you to go far away from me, but u ady went away..
I wish time can turn back and will stop at 3th July 2010. That's the date we be together, but everything change.
I have to accept all this. What all my friends said are true, I must move on my life, and be happy like usual. Right now I am trying to do it, I will try my best. ;)
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Tamil New Year and Vasakhi celebration :D
Yesterday, i went to college attended the Tamil New Year and Vasakhi celebration. When I reached there, it's already started. Haha..the dances and songs are nice. I was with Cristin, Brian, Kavee, Sugla, Hammad, Saran, Dravena,Sunmark. At the same time, i saw Prem, Jeswin, Shiva, Siavash and some other friends. We all took some pictures together..It was a nice celebration.
The ceebration end around 12am. After tat we all went to BBJ Mamak Restoran. Dravena was so sleepy tat time, haha, her face looked so funny when she feel sleepy, hehe. We ate and talked many things, until 3am only we went back to home.
Even though feel tired, but we all had a great time together :))
The ceebration end around 12am. After tat we all went to BBJ Mamak Restoran. Dravena was so sleepy tat time, haha, her face looked so funny when she feel sleepy, hehe. We ate and talked many things, until 3am only we went back to home.
Even though feel tired, but we all had a great time together :))
Friday, April 15, 2011
It's gone!!!!!
Everything gone, all also gone. I told myself must be strong and get over it, but now only I realize that I am not strong enough. I still feel sad and hurt, what should I do now, what should I do now?????
Even though I already expected all this thing will happen, but still hard to accept it.I seriously need time to forget all this. I want to throw all this frm my mind and heart and memory..
God, please lead me...in my heart, i will always remember the three people who care and love me alot when I am in their house. Sorry for can't continue contact with three of you, but I clearly know three of u do love me alot, treat me like own family member.Thanks a lot, no matter where am I, i will always remember Uncle, Aunty & Parween. May god bless three of u...
Even though I already expected all this thing will happen, but still hard to accept it.I seriously need time to forget all this. I want to throw all this frm my mind and heart and memory..
God, please lead me...in my heart, i will always remember the three people who care and love me alot when I am in their house. Sorry for can't continue contact with three of you, but I clearly know three of u do love me alot, treat me like own family member.Thanks a lot, no matter where am I, i will always remember Uncle, Aunty & Parween. May god bless three of u...
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Church Party :))
I didn't been to church before in my life..But tdy i went..cuz i was invited by one of my best fren - Leonard Saw's, he told me that his church team will have a rock party gathering and a seminar talk, so i went for it.
The gathering was so nice and awesome. All of us danced like crazy inside one dancing room and after that we played some game, Then all of us sit down and listen to a talk..after that we had our light dinner and we moved to the opposite building and listen to a seminar talk..The priest was talking about relationship things and i really learned a lot of things abt relationship frm the seminar talk...Now i knw what step should i do now..;)
I feel so relax and enjoy when i was in this party, i make some new frens and at the same time i do learned a lot of things...I am hoping for the next party to come ;))
The gathering was so nice and awesome. All of us danced like crazy inside one dancing room and after that we played some game, Then all of us sit down and listen to a talk..after that we had our light dinner and we moved to the opposite building and listen to a seminar talk..The priest was talking about relationship things and i really learned a lot of things abt relationship frm the seminar talk...Now i knw what step should i do now..;)
I feel so relax and enjoy when i was in this party, i make some new frens and at the same time i do learned a lot of things...I am hoping for the next party to come ;))
Friday, April 1, 2011
Better Be Prepare For Everything That Will Happen Soon!!!!
My mind was disturbed for this few days, I seriously don't know what am I thinking right now. Maybe I just didn't expect all this things will happen. From the beginning I taught everything will be fine if I stay strong and positive, but now, I don't even know what is strong and positive means. In my heart have a lot of things want to tell to some f my close fren, but when i am with them,I can't say it out cuz i duwan them to worry abt me.
God,please lead me to a peace mind so that i can feel relax. Right now I know I have to prepare for everything bad that will happen. I dunno whether I still have to fight for it or not or should I just let go everything.
Maybe I step into the wrong way from the begging or maybe I am not. I am listening one chinese song right now, it's one of the theme song from Shaolin 2011 movie. The english translation of this lyrics is this :
"An unconditional heart brings great blessing with no boundary
Without boundaries, our fragile life are all connected through love
Why do you turn a blind eye and let yourself be restricted by the status quo
Willingly, I finally come to my senses to realize my character and my emptiness
Let go of your inverted dreams, let go of the things which one day will fade away
Let go of your leisure, desire, pleasure and let go of suspense
With one more thing in hand, more danger will come
With less thing, greed will lessen as well
If this is fate, no matter how bitter life can be, you are always connected
Yet if it isn't, just bury this love in your heart
In this life of ours,everything interconnected & it takes only a spit second to look back
Let me plant a seed of god will and walk down this road of life together with you
Only someone whose heart is not bounded can accomplish great things
Only someone whose heart does not have a story is indigenous above all
I've consider heaven and earth & I've consider everything from my past
Yet I still cannot make out the days of live and death
Do not hate your eyes which deceive you
Do not resent for happiness is not far away
As thought are build around your desire,it only takes a split second to decide between good & evil
With a heart of repentance,let me walk down this road of life together with you
No matter how firms your lies may be, they can't escape from the eyes of God
Before dawn, your heart is being dragged further away
As the clouds are able to blind our eyes in an instant, so do human hearts change
Bitterness have been accumulated since long before and is bound to keep coming
Yet human being turn a blind eye and let themselves be restricted by the status quo
Willingly, I finally come to my senses to realize my character & my emptiness
In pure simplicity, let me walk down this road of life together with you"
This is a nice song actually and the movie are nice too :))
God,please lead me to a peace mind so that i can feel relax. Right now I know I have to prepare for everything bad that will happen. I dunno whether I still have to fight for it or not or should I just let go everything.
Maybe I step into the wrong way from the begging or maybe I am not. I am listening one chinese song right now, it's one of the theme song from Shaolin 2011 movie. The english translation of this lyrics is this :
"An unconditional heart brings great blessing with no boundary
Without boundaries, our fragile life are all connected through love
Why do you turn a blind eye and let yourself be restricted by the status quo
Willingly, I finally come to my senses to realize my character and my emptiness
Let go of your inverted dreams, let go of the things which one day will fade away
Let go of your leisure, desire, pleasure and let go of suspense
With one more thing in hand, more danger will come
With less thing, greed will lessen as well
If this is fate, no matter how bitter life can be, you are always connected
Yet if it isn't, just bury this love in your heart
In this life of ours,everything interconnected & it takes only a spit second to look back
Let me plant a seed of god will and walk down this road of life together with you
Only someone whose heart is not bounded can accomplish great things
Only someone whose heart does not have a story is indigenous above all
I've consider heaven and earth & I've consider everything from my past
Yet I still cannot make out the days of live and death
Do not hate your eyes which deceive you
Do not resent for happiness is not far away
As thought are build around your desire,it only takes a split second to decide between good & evil
With a heart of repentance,let me walk down this road of life together with you
No matter how firms your lies may be, they can't escape from the eyes of God
Before dawn, your heart is being dragged further away
As the clouds are able to blind our eyes in an instant, so do human hearts change
Bitterness have been accumulated since long before and is bound to keep coming
Yet human being turn a blind eye and let themselves be restricted by the status quo
Willingly, I finally come to my senses to realize my character & my emptiness
In pure simplicity, let me walk down this road of life together with you"
This is a nice song actually and the movie are nice too :))
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Nice & Happy Memory
I spent my one week time with all my small little cute cousins and my uncles and aunties. It was so amazing and happy. We went to many places and took alot of pictures.
Suddenly I feel so happy when i was with all the small kids. I dunno whether is they are cute or they really make me feel happy.
During this one week time, I draw some drawings with all my cousin. One of the cute little cousin name Jana, she draw some pictures for me. She wrote "Cousins Forever" and she gave all the drawings to me. I even took a pic of all the drawings. It was a nice drawing. We are so close to each other. :))
After that two of little cute boys, both are 11 and 8 years old, name Xing Hong and Xing Huang, they very like to watch movie and play computer games with me. Every night we stayed until 3 or 4am just for talking,watch movie or playing games. They don't want to let me sleep early, they want to spend time with me..They are so cute..:)) Even though all of us are cousins, but I feel like our relationship are more to brothers and sisters than cousins, cuz we really get along very well and all of them are obedient.
Yesterday, when i wanted to go back, all of them feel so sad.especially the two cute little boys, they hld my had tightly, don't want to let me go back..One week time passed so fast, I also wanna stay longer with them, but can't..Before i leave, we hug each other.
But all the memories, I already keep inside my heart.All of them love me so much, and I love all of them too..I am so happy that I have a great family members like them.
Now only I realize that nobody will love me as much as My Families love me. Whatever happens to me, they are only the one who will always be with me. Even if I die, I have no regrets, cuz I have all of them in my life along the way..
Grandma,Papa, Mama, Uncels,Aunties, Sister and Cousins, thanks to all of you that make my life so happy and memorable. You all love and care abt me alot..Me too, Love you all very much..
Suddenly I feel so happy when i was with all the small kids. I dunno whether is they are cute or they really make me feel happy.
During this one week time, I draw some drawings with all my cousin. One of the cute little cousin name Jana, she draw some pictures for me. She wrote "Cousins Forever" and she gave all the drawings to me. I even took a pic of all the drawings. It was a nice drawing. We are so close to each other. :))
After that two of little cute boys, both are 11 and 8 years old, name Xing Hong and Xing Huang, they very like to watch movie and play computer games with me. Every night we stayed until 3 or 4am just for talking,watch movie or playing games. They don't want to let me sleep early, they want to spend time with me..They are so cute..:)) Even though all of us are cousins, but I feel like our relationship are more to brothers and sisters than cousins, cuz we really get along very well and all of them are obedient.
Yesterday, when i wanted to go back, all of them feel so sad.especially the two cute little boys, they hld my had tightly, don't want to let me go back..One week time passed so fast, I also wanna stay longer with them, but can't..Before i leave, we hug each other.
But all the memories, I already keep inside my heart.All of them love me so much, and I love all of them too..I am so happy that I have a great family members like them.
Now only I realize that nobody will love me as much as My Families love me. Whatever happens to me, they are only the one who will always be with me. Even if I die, I have no regrets, cuz I have all of them in my life along the way..
Grandma,Papa, Mama, Uncels,Aunties, Sister and Cousins, thanks to all of you that make my life so happy and memorable. You all love and care abt me alot..Me too, Love you all very much..
Friday, March 4, 2011
March =.=!!!
All of us are having exam right now..Five subjects (BCS,ITM,IMWDT,ITMC & CITW). Everyone study so hard for this exam, I can see that. We want to get good results. Exam will finish on 9th of March.. =.=..Still got few more days to go..
During the exam journey, I got to realize so many things..I supposed to put all this things aside first, but can't do it, cuz my mind still thinking..I wonder if one day my mind stop working, it will be nice for me. Everyone around me seems to know that what m i thinking or doing nowadys, but the decision is in my hand..I need time to think abt this..Well, let me finish my exam, then i will get back to this ;)
Good luck for u Kelly, hope everything go well. :)
During the exam journey, I got to realize so many things..I supposed to put all this things aside first, but can't do it, cuz my mind still thinking..I wonder if one day my mind stop working, it will be nice for me. Everyone around me seems to know that what m i thinking or doing nowadys, but the decision is in my hand..I need time to think abt this..Well, let me finish my exam, then i will get back to this ;)
Good luck for u Kelly, hope everything go well. :)
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