Realized...Finally, I realized everything

Hello blog, long time no see :) Do you what happened recently? I realized so many things for past few weeks.

I went to OUG Steven's Corner with Jasreen, Deeban and Saran. We talked a lot that time. During the talk, I finally learned and realized for the past that happened to me.
What they said are true, I need to learn more :)

Some of my classmates asked me, do i plan to look another boyfriend or not, I said no and they asked why? I told them, I am not ready for another new relationship right now and I don't have confidence in LOVE anymore seriously cause the same pain, I doesn't want to go through again.

Now i realized that, actually from the beginning,I also not ready yet. That's why this relationship can end up like this. Its very sad to see that both couple that was so sweet together few months back end up in a bad shape like now. Sometimes i also can imagine and believe this also :)

What Saran, Deeban and Jasreen said are also true, I have to go through this then only I will know how to be strong in future. I am glad that i have really best friends like them :)

Half of the mistake also got came from me..I didn't know about him truly and straight jump into a relationship with him.

For what ever happened at the past, It's a lesson for me and I will always remember. Love relationship to me right now doesn't mean anything anymore. I have my family and my friends, its enough for me right now. I enjoy my single life, no pain, no tears and no worries :)

I dunno abt future, GOD will decide what's the best for me :)

Thanks to god that make me realized everything, I will keep moving on my life with a smile :))

New Life :)

Look at the past and now, everything is just like a dream. Good things and bad things happened together, and sometimes I also didn't expect that all this will happen. But finally God show me that everything happen for good, God save me from going through more pain.

Now i know that, God arrange people come to life for reasons, God also take away people frm ur life for reasons. It's just up to how strong I can face it and solve it.
Everything that regards of the memories I ady throw it away with one of my lovely fren beside me :) She told me a lot of things, I feel touched to have a good housemates and best frens like them. :)

Another thing that make me surprise that my dad and my mum didn't scold or angry me for what happened currently. They just advice, talk and support me. They said, if I am happy for watever happen to me, they will happy for me too.

Sorry dad and mum, I regret for not listening to both of u last time and when i got the lesson, then only i realized that how pain is it. But at last, you all still with me and face it together with me, Daddy and mummy, you all really love me alot.
and I love both of u too..I am so sorry for what I did at the past and please forgive me.

I ady go through everything, God give me the best parents :))

Happy :D hohoho :P

Hello blog. :D long time I didnt come here and write abt my life cuz I am too lazy..hahahaha..I had one week semester holiday last week. I went back to Taiping spent time with my family for three days..:D after that i came back to KL and at night Me, Hammad, Sugla, Kavee and Jermaine went out for Pirates of carribean movie..this is the 3rd time I watching this movie..crazyyyy :P

We all stayed awake that night and the next morning we went to LCCT Airport to Penang.
The penang trip are awesome..Feeled so enjoy and happy :D There is some funny things happened during the trip. Driving car which the gear is not free, handbreak didnt put down, entered the wrong apartment, Nasi Kandar for breakfast, lunch and dinner..:P Now i see nasi kandar also I will scared :D

Actually i didnt sleep well during the trip cuz we went to so many places :D hehehehehe..Th penang is just nice..hopefully next time we can come out with another out trip plan :D

Memories

All the memories are still here Kelly, did you realize it?? You realized,just you forcing yourself not to remember it or think about it. But, is it forcing yourself are a good thing for you right now?? You should forget it willingly. But in your heart, you doesn't want to forget all this memories.

The house, college, hostel, car, restaurant, Bukit Larut, SBN, TPG, all this places have the memories. Whenever i come to this places, i will remember evevything. Hahah, it's funny for me. The last time we spent time together, is his b'day that time. I have no regrets, at least GOD give me the chance to be with him on his bday, it's enough for me.Even though that time I taught I don't have the chance to be with him on that day, but GOD give me the chance that day to be with him. Do u know that, I am so happy that time seriuosly. :)

I don't hate you, no matter what you did, it already past. I have no energy to hate u anymore. Let everything go, I believe time can heal my heart. Ya, i feel hurt, but i am happy because my family and my friends are with me. As long i have my family and my friends all it's enough for me,I don't need anything else anymore.

I already promise myself and my friends, I will be happy and smile always. Right now I am doing it, I already move on my life. One day i will forget all this, it will be long time, but i know i will.. I wish myself good luck.

Everything happens for good :)

Melaka Trip

Tdy is labour day, all of us went to melaka, one day trip. Before that, we girls overnight in Foong Peng's house, we all supposed to sleep early cuz the next day we going early to melaka..but we girls all are talking abt love relationship things until 2.30 am only go and tidur..hahhaha...next morning hard for us to wake up...

Around 10am we started our journey to melaka..when we reached there, it ady 12.00 pm..we had our delicious lunch at Jungle streer chicken ball rice shop..the shop full of customers..we need to wait for some time to get our seat..:D

After tat we went to shopping mall for window shopping and visited the street..they sell all kinds of food, make me always feel hungry :P hahahahaha

around 6.30pm, we started our journey back to KL..we had our dinner at Kuchai Lama pork noodle shop...after tat we sit and talked for a while and we all went back home..

Tdy we all really feel tired but we all are happy. I realized that now my life and myself are changed..My life become much more better and happier..for myself, i think my character changed..I think i am not the last time Kelly maybe, i m not sure yet, but i can feel myself changed :)

actually, for the girls talked that night, i also got think alot. I have to forced myself to let go everything and forget everything. I don't want this memory keep sticking on my mind, I want this memory to get lost..hopefully one day i can tell myself that I dont remember that i got into a relationship with him before ;)

it's getting late now, I wanna sleep ady..good night :D

9 days without you...

It's already 9 days without you be with me..I seriously don't know how I feel now,sometimes i feel happy but when I am alone, I will be thinking about you. That's when I will start feel hurt.

The 1st day, I cried. 2nd day, I felt very sad..Days keep on passing and passing, I know it's hard for me to forget everything. And sorry, until now I still can't throw the ring and the key chains away. Cuz until now, I don't want you to go far away from me, but u ady went away..

I wish time can turn back and will stop at 3th July 2010. That's the date we be together, but everything change.

I have to accept all this. What all my friends said are true, I must move on my life, and be happy like usual. Right now I am trying to do it, I will try my best. ;)

Tamil New Year and Vasakhi celebration :D

Yesterday, i went to college attended the Tamil New Year and Vasakhi celebration. When I reached there, it's already started. Haha..the dances and songs are nice. I was with Cristin, Brian, Kavee, Sugla, Hammad, Saran, Dravena,Sunmark. At the same time, i saw Prem, Jeswin, Shiva, Siavash and some other friends. We all took some pictures together..It was a nice celebration.

The ceebration end around 12am. After tat we all went to BBJ Mamak Restoran. Dravena was so sleepy tat time, haha, her face looked so funny when she feel sleepy, hehe. We ate and talked many things, until 3am only we went back to home.

Even though feel tired, but we all had a great time together :))