My Family

I am so happy that I have a good family in my life. This is the greatest gift that GOD give to me. Everyday mum got cook nice supper for me, until my dad and my sister got jealous of me :P They told me that when i am at KL, mum will not cook delicious supper for them only simple supper. But if i am at home, she will cook delicious supper for me. xD Dad some more told me come back to hometown often so that they will also can have nice supper because of me. LOL.. my dad and my sis very greedy in eating =D

But i feel very happy to have a funny family like this. No tension, no quarrel. =)) We understand each other very well. :) Our this family relationship will last forever =))
Thank you Grandmother, Daddy and Mummy for your loving and caring all the time. I am so lucky to have all of you

Love you all very much. muacksssssssssss <3 <3

Life Lessons =))

I am back to hometown. I am so happy to see my parents here and i can spend time with my grandmum and my sis. really miss them alot. This few days i stay at home and think abt many things.

All the things that I gone through is just like a dream. A dream that contain many lesson to me and a dream that changed my life totally. I think this is the blessing from the distinguish for me. A good life lesson for me to realize that how happy am I in this world. =))

People come into your life for reasons and they leave you also for reasons. And I know about all the reasons. Thank you Lord Father, thanks to you that give me such a wonderful life that full of happiness, sadness,hateful, angry. Because i gone through this,I can clearly know that which way I am going now. I am towards happiness road now. Because I know that Lord Father you are be with me when I faced so many problems at the past. I know YOU always guide me to the right path, YOU showed me that there's always have a light in every darkness.

YOU have put wonderful people in my life to help and take care of me always.Like
My Family,Jasreen, Saran, Deeban, Leonard, Grace, Foong Peng, Eugene, Chun Yan,Pei Fen, Nelson and many more. =))

And now happiness is already in my hand. I promise that I will never let this happiness go away again =)) I will grab it and this happiness will always be with me until the end =))

My Birthday Celebration :D

On october 15, my friends at church celebrated my, grace and su yen birthday together. It was a surprise birthday party for three of us. So happy that time.

Our group leader Saw Chun Yen bought one delicious chocolate cheese cake for us and three of us finish almost half of the cake :P hahha

Su yen also make one cake for me. I have two cakes for my birthday celebration, yummy yummy :D Really thanks to all of them that makes my day. Love you all <3 <3

Mee Rebus from one indian aunty :))

Just now i went to had supper with my dad, mum and my sis. I ordered mee rebus from one Indian aunty. Her mee rebus was so delicious, I really like the food. Next time if my dad bring me to there, I will order mee rebus from her again. hahahah.

Tmmrw i will back to kl already. Long time didn't see Jasreen, Rachel, Kumsy. Missing them alot, especially Jasreen. :)) and long time I didn't go to church gather with CYC41T families. This time I can meet everyone, so happy :D

Challenges coming soon, resit exams on november, I will put effort. :) My dad told me not to give up, I won't give up until I success.\

Thank you daddy, Thanks for supporting all the time :) I love you.

Holiday :))

Holiday, holiday and holiday, this is what everyone like the most, including me. I had realized so many things during this holiday, especially on my birthday. Not because i had alot of presents from everyone, it's because I can feel the love of my family and my friends. This is what I feel touched the most.

Bday celebration from my family, Jasreen bday calling wish on 12am, Rachel bday calling wish from overseas, Kumsy bday song calling from KL, a special present from my childhood friend- Loo Sze En.. This is the love that I have in my life.

My results was not so good. But my dad still motivate me. He told me do not give up even though u already walk until the end of the road. Do not give up, there will be a hope; give up, there will be no hope at all.

Even though I already don't have any memories in the past, I just know that I am happy and free nowadays. No matter what happened to me in the past, I didn't decide to remember it. I just love my life now..:)

My Birthday xD

Today is my birthday, I am so happy..hahahahha..Can give myself cuti satu hari =D I received many wishes from my frens..Jassy and Vani wish me rirgh on 12am..feel so touch to have good sisters like them, always be with me all the time =D

Very thanks to god that give me a wonderful life at the end and happy ending. Now only i know that why my fren always say God will give what is the best for you.. Finally i received what is the best for me from God..Thanks alot, I love my life always =D

Death and Alive, new life begin, new Kelly are born =D

Yesterday, 24th September was my baptize day at FGA CYC Church..Wow, i feel so exicted that time, cause i really dunno what is my feeling when i going to baptism.. So many people are baptism that time..I was in group 8..when came to our group, we walked down to the holy water...after the leaders pray for us, they put us down into the water and pull us out again...the moment i went into the water, i told myself..the last time old kelly already death..all the sad memories and hard that she had will buried together with her and will never come back again..

When the moment i came out from the water, I will be the new born kelly with new and happy memories...I am so happy that God finally let me find my own destination and i believe that God will always guide me in the rest of my life.

Thanks to everyone at church, thanks to my all my best frens that came and celebrate my baptism day. You guys really support me alot =) love u all very muchie =D

I will remember this date 24th September..My new life begin in this date =D wohooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo =D

The dream that I had yesterday night

Yesterday night after the CG, all if us went to watched The Smurf movie. The movie was damn funny and we laughed so much =D. When I reached home, it's already 2am. I straight went to sleep cause i was too tired.

I also dunno when i slept off. Then i had a dream. In the dream, I came to a new housing area. This housing area all also bungalow house. And i was wondering why i come to this place.

The next moment, i saw all my frens at there. College frens and some of my high school frens. They told me one thing that Gurmit house having wedding celebration going on. My heart stopped for a while. and i dunno y.

So i quickly went to his house there and i saw what my frens said are true. his dad, mum, sister are celebrate for him. The wedding is for him and ankitha. I remembered, in the dream, i was standing quite infront of them that time with the crowd of people.

And i was looking at the celebration.I remember i feel so sad when i saw this wedding going on in front of my eyes. It's so hard for me to accept. I almost cried that time..

Gurmit saw me standing there and he looked at me. His eyes was telling me sorry. I remember I walked off from the celebration.

When now i woke up, i am thinking why the hell i had this dream? Is it God wanted to tell me that actually I haven't let go of this feeling, that's y God want me to realize through this dream? Or maybe it's just an illusion??

Yesterday evening, i company Kumsy went to apiit submit her assignment and we went and eat at cafeteria. I saw Ahmad at there, and we was talking. He saw my hand no more wearing the kalaa. He asked me did i took it off and i said yes. He said" so now u are okay and already let go of this feeling without any sadness in ur heart?"

That time i dunno what to answer him. He said this is normal and he said i need time. He also said as i already took off the kalaa, i should forget all the memories with gurmit. The kalaa contains all this memories, when i took off this kalaa, at the same time i also must took off all the memories.

He told me, one day i will be okay.=)) i said thanks to ahmad.
it;s already five months i broke up.Sometimes i feel that i ady forget abt him and sometimes i will feel that i still love him.

Hahaha, very confusing right? I think God want me to know that the wedding between him and ankitha will come one day. and want me to faster recover from this break up.

I will do my best =))

One Encunter God Camp @ Peace Heaven, Genting Highlands

On 1st September to 3rd September, all CYC members went for 3 days 2 nights One Encounter God Camp at Peace Heaven, Genting Highlands. Before that, I went to Foong Ping house overnight. Morning morning me and Grace went jogging and after that all of us went for lunch..night we went to cheras pasar malam =D

The next morning we all move to Genting Highlands. When reached there, all of sit according to our home cell group. After that we played some games and some home cell group went to the stage and shout out their slogan =P

The next day is the most exciting day. We have amazing race.wohooooo. Some of us can't manage to run up to First World Hotel but we managed to walk up there. When we reached there, we managed to finish all task of the games.hahaha..Although we didn't get any prize, but we very enjoyed the whole process.

At night we praise and worship God. and keep encho..hahahaha

During this camp, I have learned so many things that I can't learned from the books. In this camp, Me, wei Yi and Pei fen are together with CYC20J not in oiur own cell group. All of them are younger than us. Maybe outsiders will say why we have to follow the instruction of the people who younger than us. But to me is not, although they younger than us, but I have learned so many things from them. Their leadership and friendly are very good. All of us can get along very well and we even sometimes play with each other during the camp. and we als gather at night and listen to ghost stories.

The girls and guys are so caring when we are in amazing race. The guys keep watching and counting the numbers of us to make sure we won't lost at amazing race. The girls keep motivating each other. =))

Even though during this camp, Me and Wei Yi got quarrel with Pei Fen, but we told our-self that this quarrel will make our relationship more closer and better than last time. and at last, God showed us that three of us are much more closer than last time. and this time we also successfully support CYC20J cell group. I really feel so happy and reall thanks to our CYC41T leader put us inside CYC20J group. We
really learned so many things..

I also finally successfully let go everything in my past. Especially the love relationship between me and Gurmit. I just feel very happy and relax.. =D

Bible Class Exam :))

Sunday I attended the bible class exam, the whole progression was so funny. Some of the questions we don't even remember the answer, and all of us started to copy frm each other infront of Lik Fong.

He also didn't say anything and he gave us tips also, hahaha. All of us laughed and copy the answer from others, and this is not look like a exam also =P but the whole process was so enjoy and nice =))

This Thursday we will be going to genting for the One Encounter God Camp. I feel so excited fir this camp, and looking forward for this camp. Even though we will be in different cell group this time, but i still feel happy =))

This two months holiday I didn't waste it and i will spend well. After genting trip is mooncake celebration. After that, i will be going to thailand with my mun and penang with my frens...=))

My housemate asked me next month my bday got any wish, i said as long every of my family and frens are happy with their life, then this is the best present for my next month bday liao :D hahahaha

Wonderful life and true happiness finally come..hohoho :D

Freedom Feeling

Tdy i went to FGA CYC gathering. I feel so happy and I don't know why. Yesterday Me and Pei Fen went to a new cg, the people there are friendly and nice, but i still miss CYC41T. But it's good to mix around with other people and communicate with others.

Nowadays I just feel like I am very happy and better then last time. Thanks to our lord father that lead me to a bright and happy way. =)) Because of YOU, LORD FATHER, i learned how to face problem in my life, I learned how to be strong and how to forgive.

Without YOU, I won;t be able to move on my life so easily. My life changed because of YOU. Love u Lord Father =))

True Happiness Come

Hello, it's been a long time I didn't update my news at here, cause i was busy for the final exam and other stuff.

I wanna tell that, My life have been changed seriously. It become more better now and i feel much more happier. I remembered before i break up with Gurmit, we have some problem, that he ignore me for more than one month and didn't even pick up my call and reply my message. I seriously feel very heart broken and very hurt because i love him with my own true heart and true feelings but end up he treat me in another way.

I told one of my fren Leonard about this problem, he don't know how to help me actually.He just told me that saturday his church have one party and one talk about relationship and ask me whether wanna come and join them. I said ok and i went there.

About the relationship talk from the priest, it really give me alot of advices and i realize everything. actually i also feel happy after attend the party. :)

from that day onwards, i started follow Leonard come to the church-FGA CYC. I make alots of new frens at there, and alomost every fri,sat and sunday we will meet each other. and sometimes our group CYC 41T go for dinner and movie together. I feel so much better after i went to church. I tld my dad and my mum abt this, they also didn't stop me from going to church. They said that if i really find happiness at there, they will support me.

Even my housemate-Jasreen, she is my best sister. She also told me that i changed alot after i went to church. And slowly i also realised this. If that time, Leonard didn't bring me to the church, I also won't be able to move on my life so easily. Thanks Leonard, u saved me actually :) Glad to have a good brother like u. :)

I remembered last month, i went to makan with my group CYC41T leader. His name is Kwong Jun, and assistant leader also came along that time. Her name is Foong Peng. We went to one mamak at sri petaling.

I told them abt my relationship thing. They listened to me. And Kwong Jun suddenly asked me this question "kelly, do u knw what is LOVE?"

That time i dunno hw to answer him, nd he explained to me like this. He told me that He understand my problem and my feelings. He told me that LOVE is not like i treat u with my own true heart and u also must treat me with ur own true heart and not cheating me. He said that LOVE is no matter how bad the person treat u, hurt u, u will still love her and him without any scar in ur heart. U will forgive and forget what he or she done to u, and u will treat him nicely without any anger.

After Kwong Jun explain this to me, he told me that he knw in my heart, I hate gurmit for hurting and cheating me and think of revenge him back. What kwong jun think are correct. I saeriuosly duwan let gurmit go easily that time, because I knw that it's very easy for me to make him and ankitha break up by using the same way he did to me.

Kwong Jun and Foong Peng told me that, try to forgive him and be thankful for what gurmit done to me, because of him, i can only learn how to be strong to face problem in life. If i forgive and forget, I can only find the true happiness in my heart.

They asked me, whether i ady move on or not. That time i answered them i ady move on. They said that if i really ady move on, why i still think abt him, why still can be angry and sad abt this.

I started to think nicely and i realized that, that time in my heart only have hate, hate gurmit and ankitha until the max, hate them for hurting me, that's y i can't be happy even i move on my life.

after that dinner, i told myself everyday, forgive and forget. and i keep trying and trying, slowly my hate for them go down each day :) and i really feel happy now. I know that, one day i will forgive them completely.

I really thanks our fga cyc 41T group..we are like brothers and sisters like that, always share things and hang out together. Thanks to GOD that put all of us together :) love u guys, we are long ever lasting family :))

Picture of us CYC41T..Standing from left is Nelson, Chun Yen, Me, Pei Fen and Grace. Sitting from left is Leonard, Foong Peng and Kwong Jun =))

心很乱

神啊，有时我真的不知道自己在想些什么。我是真的很开心没错，但是心里面的伤痛还是存在，我一直都忘不了也放不下。我真的用尽了所有的办法，但还是忘不了过去的一切。

我真的不知道该怎么办。每当我一个人的时候，就会想起他。难道我就不值得得到真爱吗？为什么他要欺骗我的感情？为什么我所付出的真心换来的都是欺骗的下场？ 我还是很想念他。在朋友面前，我装成很快乐的样子，因为我不想他们为我担心。我想他们看到我快乐的样子而不是伤心难过的样子。

我真的很不想再为了这件事而难过流泪，但是每当一想起他，我会觉得很伤心很难过。对他的那一段感情，我始终还是放不下。

神啊，清你赐给我勇气去面对这所有的一切吧。我需要勇气去忘了他，忘了这段感情。还爱着他有什么用？他就已经忘了我。如果我还续想着他，痛苦的是我自己而已。何必呢？ 何必将自己弄成这样。放下吧，放下所有的一切吧。。。

SMILE :D

Hello blog..Long time no see ya. :)) I actually lazy to updates my latest news, haha. Anyway, i have so many things to say tdy :)

Many things happened. Last few weeks, my college have blood donation. I went and donated my blood. First time i can't donate, the nurse said that my blood pressure is low. When i went back to hometown, father took me to hospital to check my blood. Doctor said my heart are weak and my blood pressure are very low too. he advised me not to too active from now onwards, cause i might faint anytime..So sad, I cant lepak here and there so active anymore until i fully recover...

Every weekend, i went to church and temple with my frens. it's ady four months we keep going to church and temple every weekend. Every weekend, there is different life seminar talk from the priest and monks :), I actually gained many knowledge about life every weekend. At least I will know how to live happily everyday.

I am so happy to see that I changed...My life also changed..Its not like last time anymore and I also not the old Kelly anymore..Now is different kelly and different life :)).. Very thanks to god that give me such a good life.

Even through along the journey, many sad things happened. But at last I overcome all successfully..That;s also must thanks to my family and my friends that always there to support me..Without all of you, I won't be able to move on my life so easily.

I have My family and My friends with me..It's already enough for me. I am happy for what i have in my life..I will always be happy =D

Realized...Finally, I realized everything

Hello blog, long time no see :) Do you what happened recently? I realized so many things for past few weeks.

I went to OUG Steven's Corner with Jasreen, Deeban and Saran. We talked a lot that time. During the talk, I finally learned and realized for the past that happened to me.
What they said are true, I need to learn more :)

Some of my classmates asked me, do i plan to look another boyfriend or not, I said no and they asked why? I told them, I am not ready for another new relationship right now and I don't have confidence in LOVE anymore seriously cause the same pain, I doesn't want to go through again.

Now i realized that, actually from the beginning,I also not ready yet. That's why this relationship can end up like this. Its very sad to see that both couple that was so sweet together few months back end up in a bad shape like now. Sometimes i also can imagine and believe this also :)

What Saran, Deeban and Jasreen said are also true, I have to go through this then only I will know how to be strong in future. I am glad that i have really best friends like them :)

Half of the mistake also got came from me..I didn't know about him truly and straight jump into a relationship with him.

For what ever happened at the past, It's a lesson for me and I will always remember. Love relationship to me right now doesn't mean anything anymore. I have my family and my friends, its enough for me right now. I enjoy my single life, no pain, no tears and no worries :)

I dunno abt future, GOD will decide what's the best for me :)

Thanks to god that make me realized everything, I will keep moving on my life with a smile :))

New Life :)

Look at the past and now, everything is just like a dream. Good things and bad things happened together, and sometimes I also didn't expect that all this will happen. But finally God show me that everything happen for good, God save me from going through more pain.

Now i know that, God arrange people come to life for reasons, God also take away people frm ur life for reasons. It's just up to how strong I can face it and solve it.
Everything that regards of the memories I ady throw it away with one of my lovely fren beside me :) She told me a lot of things, I feel touched to have a good housemates and best frens like them. :)

Another thing that make me surprise that my dad and my mum didn't scold or angry me for what happened currently. They just advice, talk and support me. They said, if I am happy for watever happen to me, they will happy for me too.

Sorry dad and mum, I regret for not listening to both of u last time and when i got the lesson, then only i realized that how pain is it. But at last, you all still with me and face it together with me, Daddy and mummy, you all really love me alot.
and I love both of u too..I am so sorry for what I did at the past and please forgive me.

I ady go through everything, God give me the best parents :))

Happy :D hohoho :P

Hello blog. :D long time I didnt come here and write abt my life cuz I am too lazy..hahahaha..I had one week semester holiday last week. I went back to Taiping spent time with my family for three days..:D after that i came back to KL and at night Me, Hammad, Sugla, Kavee and Jermaine went out for Pirates of carribean movie..this is the 3rd time I watching this movie..crazyyyy :P

We all stayed awake that night and the next morning we went to LCCT Airport to Penang.
The penang trip are awesome..Feeled so enjoy and happy :D There is some funny things happened during the trip. Driving car which the gear is not free, handbreak didnt put down, entered the wrong apartment, Nasi Kandar for breakfast, lunch and dinner..:P Now i see nasi kandar also I will scared :D

Actually i didnt sleep well during the trip cuz we went to so many places :D hehehehehe..Th penang is just nice..hopefully next time we can come out with another out trip plan :D

Memories

All the memories are still here Kelly, did you realize it?? You realized,just you forcing yourself not to remember it or think about it. But, is it forcing yourself are a good thing for you right now?? You should forget it willingly. But in your heart, you doesn't want to forget all this memories.

The house, college, hostel, car, restaurant, Bukit Larut, SBN, TPG, all this places have the memories. Whenever i come to this places, i will remember evevything. Hahah, it's funny for me. The last time we spent time together, is his b'day that time. I have no regrets, at least GOD give me the chance to be with him on his bday, it's enough for me.Even though that time I taught I don't have the chance to be with him on that day, but GOD give me the chance that day to be with him. Do u know that, I am so happy that time seriuosly. :)

I don't hate you, no matter what you did, it already past. I have no energy to hate u anymore. Let everything go, I believe time can heal my heart. Ya, i feel hurt, but i am happy because my family and my friends are with me. As long i have my family and my friends all it's enough for me,I don't need anything else anymore.

I already promise myself and my friends, I will be happy and smile always. Right now I am doing it, I already move on my life. One day i will forget all this, it will be long time, but i know i will.. I wish myself good luck.

Everything happens for good :)

Melaka Trip

Tdy is labour day, all of us went to melaka, one day trip. Before that, we girls overnight in Foong Peng's house, we all supposed to sleep early cuz the next day we going early to melaka..but we girls all are talking abt love relationship things until 2.30 am only go and tidur..hahhaha...next morning hard for us to wake up...

Around 10am we started our journey to melaka..when we reached there, it ady 12.00 pm..we had our delicious lunch at Jungle streer chicken ball rice shop..the shop full of customers..we need to wait for some time to get our seat..:D

After tat we went to shopping mall for window shopping and visited the street..they sell all kinds of food, make me always feel hungry :P hahahahaha

around 6.30pm, we started our journey back to KL..we had our dinner at Kuchai Lama pork noodle shop...after tat we sit and talked for a while and we all went back home..

Tdy we all really feel tired but we all are happy. I realized that now my life and myself are changed..My life become much more better and happier..for myself, i think my character changed..I think i am not the last time Kelly maybe, i m not sure yet, but i can feel myself changed :)

actually, for the girls talked that night, i also got think alot. I have to forced myself to let go everything and forget everything. I don't want this memory keep sticking on my mind, I want this memory to get lost..hopefully one day i can tell myself that I dont remember that i got into a relationship with him before ;)

it's getting late now, I wanna sleep ady..good night :D

9 days without you...

It's already 9 days without you be with me..I seriously don't know how I feel now,sometimes i feel happy but when I am alone, I will be thinking about you. That's when I will start feel hurt.

The 1st day, I cried. 2nd day, I felt very sad..Days keep on passing and passing, I know it's hard for me to forget everything. And sorry, until now I still can't throw the ring and the key chains away. Cuz until now, I don't want you to go far away from me, but u ady went away..

I wish time can turn back and will stop at 3th July 2010. That's the date we be together, but everything change.

I have to accept all this. What all my friends said are true, I must move on my life, and be happy like usual. Right now I am trying to do it, I will try my best. ;)

Tamil New Year and Vasakhi celebration :D

Yesterday, i went to college attended the Tamil New Year and Vasakhi celebration. When I reached there, it's already started. Haha..the dances and songs are nice. I was with Cristin, Brian, Kavee, Sugla, Hammad, Saran, Dravena,Sunmark. At the same time, i saw Prem, Jeswin, Shiva, Siavash and some other friends. We all took some pictures together..It was a nice celebration.

The ceebration end around 12am. After tat we all went to BBJ Mamak Restoran. Dravena was so sleepy tat time, haha, her face looked so funny when she feel sleepy, hehe. We ate and talked many things, until 3am only we went back to home.

Even though feel tired, but we all had a great time together :))

It's gone!!!!!

Everything gone, all also gone. I told myself must be strong and get over it, but now only I realize that I am not strong enough. I still feel sad and hurt, what should I do now, what should I do now?????

Even though I already expected all this thing will happen, but still hard to accept it.I seriously need time to forget all this. I want to throw all this frm my mind and heart and memory..

God, please lead me...in my heart, i will always remember the three people who care and love me alot when I am in their house. Sorry for can't continue contact with three of you, but I clearly know three of u do love me alot, treat me like own family member.Thanks a lot, no matter where am I, i will always remember Uncle, Aunty & Parween. May god bless three of u...

Church Party :))

I didn't been to church before in my life..But tdy i went..cuz i was invited by one of my best fren - Leonard Saw's, he told me that his church team will have a rock party gathering and a seminar talk, so i went for it.

The gathering was so nice and awesome. All of us danced like crazy inside one dancing room and after that we played some game, Then all of us sit down and listen to a talk..after that we had our light dinner and we moved to the opposite building and listen to a seminar talk..The priest was talking about relationship things and i really learned a lot of things abt relationship frm the seminar talk...Now i knw what step should i do now..;)

I feel so relax and enjoy when i was in this party, i make some new frens and at the same time i do learned a lot of things...I am hoping for the next party to come ;))

Better Be Prepare For Everything That Will Happen Soon!!!!

My mind was disturbed for this few days, I seriously don't know what am I thinking right now. Maybe I just didn't expect all this things will happen. From the beginning I taught everything will be fine if I stay strong and positive, but now, I don't even know what is strong and positive means. In my heart have a lot of things want to tell to some f my close fren, but when i am with them,I can't say it out cuz i duwan them to worry abt me.

God,please lead me to a peace mind so that i can feel relax. Right now I know I have to prepare for everything bad that will happen. I dunno whether I still have to fight for it or not or should I just let go everything.

Maybe I step into the wrong way from the begging or maybe I am not. I am listening one chinese song right now, it's one of the theme song from Shaolin 2011 movie. The english translation of this lyrics is this :


"An unconditional heart brings great blessing with no boundary
Without boundaries, our fragile life are all connected through love
Why do you turn a blind eye and let yourself be restricted by the status quo
Willingly, I finally come to my senses to realize my character and my emptiness
Let go of your inverted dreams, let go of the things which one day will fade away
Let go of your leisure, desire, pleasure and let go of suspense
With one more thing in hand, more danger will come
With less thing, greed will lessen as well
If this is fate, no matter how bitter life can be, you are always connected
Yet if it isn't, just bury this love in your heart
In this life of ours,everything interconnected & it takes only a spit second to look back
Let me plant a seed of god will and walk down this road of life together with you
Only someone whose heart is not bounded can accomplish great things
Only someone whose heart does not have a story is indigenous above all
I've consider heaven and earth & I've consider everything from my past
Yet I still cannot make out the days of live and death
Do not hate your eyes which deceive you
Do not resent for happiness is not far away
As thought are build around your desire,it only takes a split second to decide between good & evil
With a heart of repentance,let me walk down this road of life together with you
No matter how firms your lies may be, they can't escape from the eyes of God
Before dawn, your heart is being dragged further away
As the clouds are able to blind our eyes in an instant, so do human hearts change
Bitterness have been accumulated since long before and is bound to keep coming
Yet human being turn a blind eye and let themselves be restricted by the status quo
Willingly, I finally come to my senses to realize my character & my emptiness
In pure simplicity, let me walk down this road of life together with you"


This is a nice song actually and the movie are nice too :))

Nice & Happy Memory

I spent my one week time with all my small little cute cousins and my uncles and aunties. It was so amazing and happy. We went to many places and took alot of pictures.
Suddenly I feel so happy when i was with all the small kids. I dunno whether is they are cute or they really make me feel happy.

During this one week time, I draw some drawings with all my cousin. One of the cute little cousin name Jana, she draw some pictures for me. She wrote "Cousins Forever" and she gave all the drawings to me. I even took a pic of all the drawings. It was a nice drawing. We are so close to each other. :))

After that two of little cute boys, both are 11 and 8 years old, name Xing Hong and Xing Huang, they very like to watch movie and play computer games with me. Every night we stayed until 3 or 4am just for talking,watch movie or playing games. They don't want to let me sleep early, they want to spend time with me..They are so cute..:)) Even though all of us are cousins, but I feel like our relationship are more to brothers and sisters than cousins, cuz we really get along very well and all of them are obedient.

Yesterday, when i wanted to go back, all of them feel so sad.especially the two cute little boys, they hld my had tightly, don't want to let me go back..One week time passed so fast, I also wanna stay longer with them, but can't..Before i leave, we hug each other.

But all the memories, I already keep inside my heart.All of them love me so much, and I love all of them too..I am so happy that I have a great family members like them.

Now only I realize that nobody will love me as much as My Families love me. Whatever happens to me, they are only the one who will always be with me. Even if I die, I have no regrets, cuz I have all of them in my life along the way..

Grandma,Papa, Mama, Uncels,Aunties, Sister and Cousins, thanks to all of you that make my life so happy and memorable. You all love and care abt me alot..Me too, Love you all very much..

March =.=!!!

All of us are having exam right now..Five subjects (BCS,ITM,IMWDT,ITMC & CITW). Everyone study so hard for this exam, I can see that. We want to get good results. Exam will finish on 9th of March.. =.=..Still got few more days to go..

During the exam journey, I got to realize so many things..I supposed to put all this things aside first, but can't do it, cuz my mind still thinking..I wonder if one day my mind stop working, it will be nice for me. Everyone around me seems to know that what m i thinking or doing nowadys, but the decision is in my hand..I need time to think abt this..Well, let me finish my exam, then i will get back to this ;)

Good luck for u Kelly, hope everything go well. :)

February

I am back again. this few days have so many submission of assignment,everyone of us ady gone crazy...thank god everything go well..On Feb 7, we celebrated Jasreen's and Valeria's Birthday inside Miss Madihah class..Guess what? Sugla, Hammad, Bel, Kavee, Vani and Hissan also came inside our class and celebrate together with us..So happy and so nice memories we had.

On feb 12, we having Media presentation inside the class..Every group is okay, but end up one group their members is fighthing..I hope now they are ok..:)) After the presentation, we held a surprise farewell party for our lecturer-Miss Madihah..We ate cake inside the class, all of us stayed at Apiit until 7.45pm..

And today Feb 14, is valentines day..I wish all the couple in the world including myself will have a nice day tdy..No matter it will happen or not, just be happy abt what u have right now..Don't hope for too much and just be happy :))

What Happened Actually ?????

I dunno what is true and what is false now..Can anyone just tell me what should i do?? I am so heartbroken right now...God please, please led me to a better way..I don't want to be sad everyday but what can i do?

I just want a simple life, a simple happy life. Why give me the life that i got in last time? Y give me the second time? y??!! .. I didnt do anything wrong...

I try to be strong, try to be positive..but end up i found out that actually i m not...
I dunno what to do..my mind and my heart are confuse... :((

2011 :D

2010 end. Now it's 2011, the new year for everyone for us and the new hope for us also. My wish for this year is to be happy.hahaha. This month really have lots of thing to do..assignment submission, presentation and some special day also coming soon..hehehe.

During the two weeks holiday, i went to Penang star cruise with my family, This is my first time for the star cruise, so i m so happy, the ship is really very very big and it contains a lot of deck, its really look like titanic..hehehe

It have restaurant, casino,and some restaurant inside, and when nights come, its really very windy...I had a wonderful time at the ship..:) Hope can go for this trip again..:)